Food & Drink

Why I Hate Coffee: A Confession

Published On 04/09/2014 Published On 04/09/2014
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Last time I was in a coffee shop, I freaked.

I didn’t hurl myself through the oversized window that all coffee shops have, so you can see people drinking coffee and wearing light sweaters -- but I sure wanted to. Instead, I crumbled internally as people completed their orders and I inched toward the counter. I stared at the menu, lovingly constructed by someone who clearly did a correspondence course in Nouveau Expository Chalkboarding, and understood nothing. When my turn arrived: panic.

“I’ll have, um, well, let’s see… how is the Faema Urine? Or perhaps the Old Brew? How old is it, exactly? The Americaner also looks inviting and very bean-y. You know what, I’ll have a club soda. But without the bubbles. Yes, a water. Tap is fine. Thank you. Off to read poems now.”

The hard part was living in a world that treats coffee like oxygen that makes you poop.


I hate coffee, and it’s time I let everyone know. Until now, it’s been a Brown-ish Letter I've tried to keep quiet, cover up. When someone asks me if I’d like to meet for coffee, I politely suggest we grab a beer instead. They of course assume I have a serious alcohol problem, until I mention I would like to get that drink AFTER work, not at 10:15am. Although that does sound nice and much better than coffee.

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Where it all started

It might help to trace this back to the beginning. I used to drink coffee. All the time, actually. Everyone was doing it! I drank it in high school, because pouring liquids from one container into another, and then into my body, was absolutely the most exciting thing that could happen while minding the front desk at the Y. I drank it in college because my stupid professors kept yelling at me for sleeping in class.

While working in an Irish pub post-graduation, I made it my strict mission, aside from making tons of hilarious "craic" jokes, to become a MAN by training myself to consume and enjoy black coffee from whatever wretched rust-bucket Irish pubs buy from the Really, Really Used Restaurant Stuff Depot. They put whiskey in it 80% of the time, so the focus wasn't exactly on quality. But I did it. I acquired that taste. I even thought I liked it.

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The quitting

Coffee remained in my life, until one day seemingly like any other, it didn’t. The cartoon light bulb: it was ruining me. I would feel fine, and then I'd drink some coffee, and then I wouldn't feel fine. I was jittery, sleepless, and incapable of focus, except for that time I rented a Ford Focus, which I drove extremely jittery-y, because of all the coffee. It was time.

I woke up the next morning. Just woke right up! No coffee necessary! And could do things just fine. I was a little confused when I walked into the kitchen at work and remembered I wasn’t going to get a coffee. In most office kitchens, there’s nothing to do if you’re not getting coffee. Grab some napkins? And then, like, throw out those napkins? I like apple juice, but there was no Mr. Apple Juice. Why are there no Mr. Apple Juices? They should have those.

It turned out quitting was easy. The hard part was living in a world that treats coffee like oxygen that makes you poop.

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Nobody likes me

Now I am a man without a country, because every country loves coffee. When someone in the office stands up to announce that they're "running to get coffee!", as all people in all offices do at all times, they avert their eyes from me like I'm Medusa, because Medusa has never heard of Blue Bottle. I am the Untouchable. 

When it inevitably comes out amongst new people that I don’t funnel 18 gallons of Stumptown a day, everyone looks at me like I’m some sort of six-headed freak, although they likely see all people as having between five and eight heads thanks to all that caffeine ravaging their synapses.

“Wait, you mean you don’t drink coffee AT ALL?” “Nope.” “How do you… do things???” “I just do them.” “Oh my god, if I don’t have my coffee, let me tell you, I…” And then comes the terrifyingly predictable list of things they wouldn’t be able to do without it: “wake up”, “get going”, “function”, and, again, “poop”.

Look: it hurts. Nobody wants to be the outsider, except C. Thomas Howell, Matt Dillon, Ralph Macchio, etc. But my little (former) secret is I’m judging you right back. You say “I need my coffee”, and there’s something of a brag in there. You flaunt your “addiction”. But you’re not hooked; you just like it. How many times have you been $.20 short of a Grande, and had no choice but to service a dude in the coffee shop bathroom, BEFORE YOU EVEN BUY A COFFEE, WHICH IS SOMETHING THEY STRONGLY FROWN UPON?!?

And yet I’m the one made to feel guilty when I “confess” that I’m not part of the grand caffeinated charade. There’s not jealousy that I’m free of its clutches; there’s suspicion and borderline rancor that I might be so brazen as to not conform via the cup, too. And so I sit outside the clubhouse, waiting for the kids to invite me in. They never do. 

And no, I don’t want a decaf either. But thanks.

Ben Robinson is Thrillist’s Chief Creative Officer, and really enjoyed the movie Coffee and Cigarettes, even though he doesn’t smoke, either. Tell him what his pathetic uncaffeinated life is lacking @BenjoRobinson.

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