What finally made me change
I got to a point where I was so sick, I couldn’t function. A 100-day experiment changed my life. I set a simple goal (eat enough, instead of an insane cycle of starving and binge eating, and exercising for 10 minutes a day) and stuck with it until I felt better.
And then one day, when I caught my reflection, I made myself keep looking. It wasn’t a mirror, or a candid photograph.
It was my reflection in a glass door in the freezer section of the grocery store. It was while I was reaching for Cherry Garcia. I caught a glimpse of myself and, for some reason, I didn’t turn away.
I stood there in the freezer section, holding a pint of Cherry Garcia, and I looked until I wasn’t parade-float sized anymore. Until I was just me. Three-hundred-and-sixty-eight pounds, not three-million-and-sixty-eight pounds. I looked until I could be as kind to myself as I would be to any other human being on the planet.