When I dropped more than 150lb of the 307lb I was carrying, I was undeniably healthier. I quit smoking, cut back on drinking, and today, I’m a certified personal trainer. Unlike most folks who lose a bunch of weight, I’ve maintained my weight loss for over a decade. What's my secret? Hypnosis? Nope. Paleo? Nope. Cocaine? Wouldn't you like that. I've worked my ass off (both literally and figuratively) for these results, and I couldn't have done it without accepting myself, not just as a thin person, but as the person I was before I lost my weight.
It's easy to look at dramatic before-and-after weight-loss photos and imagine that the people in them would never dream about going back to the obese versions of themselves. The truth, as is usually the case, is more complicated -- there are some things I actually miss about weighing more than 300lb. These are just a few of them.
People don't see me in the same unthreatening light
My personality didn't change when I lost weight, but how people felt about it changed -- a lot. Fat Me reliably got laughs, but Fit Me is a lot more likely to be seen as "too intense" or "overconfident," especially by strangers. I miss being myself, speaking my mind, and letting the jokes fly without wondering who I might rub the wrong way.