We try to let go of the "what if's" because we can't predict what will happen. Instead, we focus on maximizing our happiness, right now. I always show James and Luke how important they are to me through my words, thoughtful gifts, special date nights, being present in the moment, and being there when they need me.
When I'm scared or jealous, I remind myself that I'm amazing and that I want my partners to be happy. If they would ultimately be happier with someone else, it would break my heart. But it would also feel cruel to try and stop them.
Despite being dedicated to making a relationship work, we never know how long it will last
Like any relationship, being in love puts you in uncharted territory. Will my arrangement with James and Luke last another year? A decade? A lifetime? If it lasts long-term, what will that look like?
And though it seems like monogamy is easy to predict (date, move in, get engaged, get married, have kids…), you and I both know that's not the case. So far, my relationship with these two men is working. But I imagine there may come a time where it doesn't work anymore, just like any other relationship. It might be because of our relationship style, or it could be one of the other million things couples break up over. But for now, we're happy -- and we're not changing a thing.